Grief…. ‘as told from a daughter to her father’

Writing about the loss of my father is something that I have not been able to do until now.

why that is the case, I don’t know? All I know is that losing the first man you ever love is also the greatest grief that you can not imagine.

My father was my everything, and still is. I could say that in death things change… they do, but the loss is amplified by 1000.

Like all parents, no-one is perfect… I will purposely just talk about my father as he has shaped me into the person I am today. He was not without flaws, as I am not. The one thing though that my father had ‘was unconditional love’ for his daughter. Again, I purposely leave other family members out of this writing, out of respect for them.

Papa immigrated to the ‘lucky country’ from Italy when he was 18. Oldest of three but the one constant in my life… up until 5 years ago in August. That day will forever be etched in my mind as if it was yesterday…..

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Managing University Studies while in Hospital

It has been some time since I have placed a reflective message on my domain. Thanks to anyone that is following this journey in life…

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‘have not forgotten the kind people that follow my site’

In saying that I presented to the emergency department on September 9. It was not something that I wanted to do, my thoughts are that I truly appreciate the work that nurses and doctors do in the ER but like anyone, it is not a place I like to go in.

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‘i promise my legs are not as hair as this!’

Those that do follow me know that I believe in “balance” – well that is ironic as my balance to some extent has placed me in the situation that I am in. Weeks ago I was walking, as I do, 4 times a week for an hour. This particular afternoon (I either give 110% or I am my worst critic), 20 minutes into my walk my right knee kind of went underneath me. I thought I had not warmed up enough. I continued to walk. Doing this was the wrong thing to do.

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Annual Registration for the Bundaberg Athletic Club Lights up the Night!

The Bundaberg Athletic club came together on August 24 for their annual sign up for potential athletes. Situated on University Drive, Bundaberg. Family event and exciting to see.

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‘the view of the Bundaberg Athletic club’

The Wide Bay region is lucky to have a club that offers world-class tracks for use in all aspects of athletics and invites children, teenagers and people with disabilities to participate. The club relies on volunteers and grants to keep each season going.

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“the Bundaberg athletic club is proud that the surface used for athletes are the same conditions as those of the Olympic games”

 

New members appreciated the environment and atmosphere on the night. Lights were on, little ones in their club shirts were excited, having the opportunity to talk to friends.

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“community spirit shines through as these are volunteers that talk to prospective new athletes, volunteering their time, not only for tonight but during the season”

 

I was kindly shown around the venue and to my delight, was made aware that all forms of athletics are available in the wide bay region. The microphone was going on through the night, which added to the nice feel of the event. Their mascot was priceless; children kept going to him wanting to know who this person was. Beautiful to see the happiness of children running around laughing.

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‘”Vice President Mr James Bulbert with the club mascot’

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Reflection on Mental Illness

I sit here on a Friday morning at 6.00 am and wonder why there still is a stigma around mental illness? We have days like “R U OK” & “Beyond Blue” and more but still people are scared to come out for fear of “what will people think?”

I find that as a nation we need to finally give the recognition of what this illness is part of any illness such as; diabetes, heart conditions, pain etc. I know we have made a progress, but it still requires courage to say “I am not well”, I need help.

When someone exhibits any forms of “depression”, don’t be afraid to ask if there is something wrong! Go on your gut instinct. Your question could impact on the life of one person who thinks that no-one cares!

 

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“You are not alone”

I am passionate about this subject. I used to be a volunteer crisis support worker on the lines of ‘Lifeline’ and let me say, it is a eye-opening and humbled opportunity to do this. I know I am unable to this right now. It is my goal to go back on the phones.l

Please visit the website link below”

Website for lifeline

There are so many forms of ‘mental illness’ but yet people don’t understand how alone people are. Aged people especially if the have lost a partner are in a world of trouble. You then have those young ones that ring and share a story of bullying or self-harm, do we as a society recognise that we need to step in early so this does not become a cycle of relapse etc.

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Bipolar – What is the difference between BP1 & BP2

Important to note that these are both mental illness. Over the years I have had the privilege to work on the “lines” at Lifeline. This is an eye opening experience.

Bipolar I and II have different facets but essentially they bring you to a ‘high’ and ‘low’.

Sourced from, verywellmind:

 

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The explanation and the need to write about this, is simple.

I have Bipolar II, nothing to be ashamed of and certainly something that I don’t advertise to the world because no matter how far we have come in terms of understand mental illness, stigma is still attached.

Bipolar II from my experience has been challenging but also when diagnosed in 2015,all of a sudden things fell into place for me. BPII is not as manic as I, but it still is a illness that you need to manage well.

I live my life and enjoy every moment, the only way I do this, is balance. I balance what I eat, read and exercise when I can. Medication is certainly an option that some take and others don’t. I take medication, but that is 1% of management. With all illness, if not managed well, you will suffer. 

As an example someone who may have diabetes and eats whatever they want, but uses insulin is not as effective if you combine healthy eating and medication together.

We live in a world were image and conceptions about people are prevalent. It is sad to know that if you say to someone that you do have a mental illness, they cringe. The ones though that don’t care are ‘friends and family’. 

I decided to write this article because I would not be staying true to myself if I like other hid it away. I commend celebrity people who come out and state that they too suffer. It was only recently that Mariah Carey said she had Bipolar !!

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It is a very individual illness that is treated by a person.

“Remember Bipolar II is NOT me, but part of who I am”

(written by Lina-Raudino-Grosso)

references provided as above

Do we have to be a hero 24/7?

 

 MEPHOBIA: Fear of becoming that awesome that the rest of the human race simply cannot handle it!

Courtesy of:

“Billie the Essential guide”

 

My personal thoughts have always been that; personal. I don’t pretend to be someone who I am not. I am who I am. 

I decided on a Friday night to touch base and say that this week has been the toughest week of my life, for a variety of reasons. I could say “I’ve got through it” or “All is good” or “Things will get better”. The fact is that all those things can happen, but reality is life does not work like that. This is the time we need every resource to focus our eyes on a positive, and for me today it has been my “baby boy”

Kuga runs the home, but knows his master!!
Kuga Bear turns 1 next week

I am thoroughly enjoying the process of learning and the opportunity to do so through Central Queensland University, Bundaberg. It never is too late to learn!

 

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Photo by Startup Stock Photos on Pexels.com

All I want to say, is whatever is happening in our lives, sometimes we don’t have to be a hero! We don’t have to put on a brave face when you just don’t have one.

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“A nice dry and fruity white”

Be you and let those who love you for who you are, be part of your journey in life….

(Written by Lina-Raudino-Grosso)